Sunshine on my Shoulders

sunnerdIt makes me happy.

A couple weeks ago I was standing on a mountain and I really did feel sunshine on my shoulders. It was about 20 degrees but the sun was ablaze and the sky was going from periwinkle to ultraviolet to deep indigo.  I know I should have been cold but suddenly my shoulders were ablaze and the rays found its way through two or three layers.

The sun was in my eyes too, but it didn’t really make me cry except to feel joy. I never knew what John Denver meant by that second line

“sunshine in my eyes can make me cry”

But in that moment I did understand. Sunshine is so beautiful it makes you cry. Beautiful as to be blinding. It was too bright to see beyond my tracks in the snow. But I could feel an ethereal love starting as a tiny pinpoint and ending in an infinite ray.  A love that came from a million miles away, a singular white light love that only a burning star can send to a slowly spinning planet. As I stood there in my tracks on the trail that led into the sky I thought of one thing only.

I belong here.

I belong in the bright light, in the sphere of the now and the know.
I will stay here as long as I can.

That is what happiness is.

 

 

The Earth is Not Dying

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It’s being killed.

This is a quote from author and naturalist Paul Rosolie on the rain forest which is burning.

I came upon this photo in a travel magazine. It kindles dreams of visiting the rain forest someday. I’m not sure it will still be there when I get there. If it’s not there, it will be the least of my worries.

Green is the dream, you can’t get back from black.

Something Down There Stinks

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Something down there stinks.

like a backed up bus station toilet in Toledo at three in the morning

like leaking pipes dripping on
food from the school cafeteria
crumbling infrastructure
ultraviolence

like a closet full of modern day Nazis
getting their freak on now that the clown is in town
brown shirt invasion

supreme perverts
canonized in bronze
because it’s a superfun time to be a villian

Something down there stinks
from 400 years of festering and suffering and war and taxes
is it dead people or do I smell orange

I want to smell roses but there’s a hand holding my face to the stench

I would like to create something good
About good, borne from old fashioned beauty, but

My outrage has threatened my voice and my soul. To be outraged is to be paralyzed. To feel hatred to such a degree is a threat to my own humanity.

We are tossed into the void with nothing to hold. There is no one to lead us through this morass, not this time. You are on your own. Never in history has it been more vital to know who you are and what you are about. Define yourself and act accordingly. Do not complain that you don’t matter; that you won’t be heard. You will be heard if you scream. Scream.

VOTE.

Fill the Void

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Only a few months into 2016 and I’ve realized all the major inspirations of my creative life are slowly passing on. Must I tack on yet another broody tome reflecting on the death of David Bowie? Yes.

It was David Bowie that taught us kids it was good to be different. Zesty and zany. The lifelong interwoven mystery of Major Tom. Pink monkey birds. Pappamamas and rock-and-roll bitches. Diamond Dogs and Cat People. Peoploids and Starmen. Vaudeville space rock meets Kibuki theater.

“Let the children boogie.”

And they did. David Bowie was a pioneer, someone who sets the stage and rages it, constantly reinventing himself in such a way that made it clear that there would only be one David Bowie.

And how true it is that there is only one of each of us. We should express ourselves as freely as possible, borrowing a little nectar from this bloom to that, taking what we know and expanding the universe as we wander into the unknown.

Keith Richards Is Just a Guy

Speaking of autobiographies—another page-turner is Keith Richards’ Life. It’s a satirical title, considering all the blather about how he never should have survived it. Reading autobiographies have a way of flying celebrities back down to earth. They seem so larger than life and then I read about them and realize they’re just monkeys like the rest of us. I’m thinking back to another autobiography where John Lennon explained to a fanatic who camped for days in his yard, hoping to meet him:

“I’m just a guy who writes songs.”

The colorful blobs are my take on sound. Ever since The War of the Worlds, I think about the aliens in the story who could sense things we could not. What if we could smell colors and see sounds?